'Rise and rise again, until lambs become lions', something to remind myself everyday.

ANGELA QUENNINE SIM YEE SZE YUN
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Turning 21st this year, knock me hard into reality what am i going to do after i graduate? The price to pay for being a carefree, worry-less, happy kids is, facing all the stress, responsibilities and worries being an adult. Would you choose to have less freedom yet taken care and protected, or full of freedom yet have to be worry for every single thing around you? It's such an irony how when we are young, we wish to grow up fast. When we grew up, we wish to be a kid again. No doubt, i wish to be a kid, well taken care and protected. It's like having two-side in me, I dont wish to be an adult v.s I still have to face it because i'm old enough. Cause i know it gonna be a tough time ahead.

How your parents will actually fight for you when you are builled, how easy your monthly allowance comes, how you get grumpy over toys you want to have, how you get jealous over the care your parents gives to other siblings, how your meals, hair, clothes is prepare or tidy up as you grow up, you no longer find yourself being in those spot. You realized, how hard you have to fight for yourself even how tough times are. How hard money are earned when start taking up jobs, despite those dismay you have faced you still have to swallow it down your throat carrying with a smile on the face to pull through the day. Getting things you want yourself with the hard-earned money. Jealousy no longer exit because you understand, it's not cause they doesn't dote you as much as others. Things no longer come easy.

The transition we faced along, as we grew up, is a tremendous different. The thinking, impact, responsibilities. As much as i wish i'm still a 10years old kid, I have grown up. It is time for me to face the world and repay the gratitude towards my parents twice, thrice or even more. Never forgetting the fact that, while we are growing, they are aging.

I was lost of what to do being an adult. I realized, designer is not my strength, not what i will wish to be. Perfection does not exit, but i believe near perfection do, that's what a designer will actually require which i doesn't. Applied for something which i have more passion with, and got a surprise phone call today. :') Beyong words could contain the gratefulness i felt. At least, i was given that 50-50 chance. I always doubt myself for not being able to do it, and low confidence have always been my weakness, this time round, not anymore. Because i'm gonna fight hard for it.

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